Curious faces, some familiar, some not so familiar, nervous glances and awkward nail-biting gestures. Day 1 of unanswered questions: "What the hell am I doing here?" "What is this all about?" and "Who are these people?" Past allegiances unite and cling desperately together for the comfort familiarity brings, the lone man sits in a corner silent.
TABS starts off like any new adventure, the nervousness, the hesitation, but grows on you, and close to you, until you're part of "The family". The message is simple, empowerment of young MSMs (Men who have sex with men), emphasis on "young", because thoughts initially stray into lands of questioning how appropriate it is for some of these guys to be here, but really, isn't it very appropriate for them to be in such a nurturing setting? The setting itself is safe and breeds freedom of expression.
I started off TABS just like the other person, the questions, the nervousness and the compromised comfort that new faces bring, but if humans could go to the moon (whether Neil Armstrong had us all fooled or not) then any challenge can be tackled head on, and that’s what I did. Defences up, sword and shield at ready, I tread onto the precarious emotional battlefield. Because initially, we all really were at war with ourselves, some passively putting up defences, others wearing a frown and disapproving body language like a bulletproof vest.
The trick of it all is having an open mind, making yourself vulnerable, and pulling the jig-saw pieces of your life apart to fit them together perfectly with a helping hand. See I believe Jamaica should be expecting a COLLASAL disaster anytime soon, with social decay cutting away at the moral fibre that holds this country together, so what if... What if someone comes along, someone more experienced, more knowledgeable, maybe someone sexy (which actually makes the attention grasping process easier than you'd imagine), better yet, what if a couple folks with that common goal of getting this country back on track come together, giving it a shot seems only humane.
In my capacities as a human and a flawed individual, I'm about to give it a go. Its your call now, mister.
The Attractor
All power to u....
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Deleteyeps and rightly so>> life is a beautiful experience and along the we will experience the existence of soo many people>>> totally awesome!!!111 loving the attractor factor
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ReplyDeleterightly and justly said Mr Attractor..... we all came into this programmme with variying degrees of comfort and insecurity all holding our guards tightly wondering what if? questioning all the things except what am i gonna leave here with..... as the weeks passed the ice of divinity melted and we became a family more than just cohort 2 but a group of young men who shared beautiful times togther>>>> we laughed, dash out, sang, conversed and behaved human not as msm>>> thats just a title that doesnt define who we are entirely...... the thing that i most honour is that we didnt fight malice or argue>>> we are special in that regard<<<< we took a leap of trust and met great people from diverse and interesting backgrounds<<< i love you guys and i hope there could be a season 2 of cohort 2 hehehehe or we all could repeat lol<< but either way you guys have made idelible marks in my heart as u were the people i grew with emotionally and now i am developing into a self aware and confident national treasure who will remmember u guys always
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ReplyDeleteSociety is made up of all of us and it is based on the interactions of us that creates the culture of society..... if we could interact with each other amicably with judgement then a culture of love togetherness and fairness would result>>> so lets make our interactions more civil, friendlier so that msms can be free one day it all starts with u
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ReplyDeletethe time is approaching when we have to act as our own mirrors and stare our flaws in the face>>> but the real task is what do we do when we have seen those flaws???